Recklessly Abandoned

I had the weirdest thing happen this evening.  Its never happened before, and I'm still kind-of reeling from the shock.  You see, my son actually put into words what I've been feeling.  Let me tell you, as a mom, its rather bizarre to read something your child wrote and realize, "Wow...that's really wise."

So, basically, my son defined faith as "reckless abandonment."  (Here's a link to his blog about this.)  This reminds me of what we learned from our teaching elder, John Ray, not too long ago: "Faith is being completely sold out for Jesus; NO PLAN B!"

My husband, Rick, and I are actively pursuing a position as house managers with ISCA (International Student Christian Association).  Basically, this would entail us moving from our almost 3,000 sq/ft house into @800 sq/ft of private living space, and sharing the community space with six international students.  We found out today that we'll also need to give up my sweet little dog, Sophie, to take on this ministry role.  We were also told that our private space gets pretty stinking hot in the summer...like, unbearably hot.

I'm sitting her tonight wondering if I can do this.  I think the better question might be if God's glory is worth it.  Something I read while taking the Perspectives class comes to mind:  The missionaries long ago would pack their belongings in a casket to take with them to their mission field.  They knew they would be giving their lives to share God's glory.

I'm probably not going to die as a result of moving into a campus ministry house, but am I willing to?  Giving up my sweet Sophie and possibly having to sleep on a downstairs couch on hot summer nights isn't a big deal.  Jesus is most definitely worth it.  I want to be recklessly abandoned.  I want to live like that!  Please read the lyrics as you listen to this song.  (I think they snuck in and read my prayer journal.)

Sometimes I think 
What will people say of me 
When I'm only just a memory 
When I'm home where my soul belongs 

Was I love 
When no one else would show up 
Was I Jesus to the least of those 
Was my worship more than just a song 

I want to live like that 
And give it all I have 
So that everything I say and do 
Points to You 

If love is who I am 
Then this is where I'll stand 
Recklessly abandoned 
Never holding back 

I want to live like that 
I want to live like that 

Am I proof 
That You are who you say You are 
That grace can really change a heart 
Do I live like Your love is true 

People pass 
And even if they don't know my name 
Is there evidence that I've been changed 
When they see me, do they see You 

I want to live like that 
And give it all I have 
So that everything I say and do 
Points to You 

If love is who I am 
Then this is where I'll stand 
Recklessly abandoned 
Never holding back 

I want to live like that 
I want to live like that 


I want to show the world the love You gave for me 
I'm longing for the world to know the glory of the King 

I want to live like that 
And give it all I have 
So that everything I say and do 
Points to You 

If love is who I am 
Then this is where I'll stand 
Recklessly abandoned 
Never holding back 

I want to live like that 
I want to live like tha