This week I was once again thinking about all that Jesus has done to get me to the point that I am willing to say YES to whatever God brings my way. For the longest time, I know opportunities were presented, but I chose to say NO...or on a good day, I'd say MAYBE later.
Now, I find myself in this place where I want to say YES to everything...but there's this whole "time-space-continuum" thing holding me back. For each of us there is the good, the better and the best. Figuring out which is which is stinkin' hard!
Right now, in my life, I am the choir booster president for my daughter's class. That's good. I'm the coordinator for a Perspectives class. That's better. But for us, I think the international student ministry we're part of is the best at this point in life.
I'm in this horrible spot of having to choose to give up the good and the better to be fully engaged in the best. This is SO tough!!! I want to do it all.
The good news is, my daughter graduates this year, so giving up choir boosters will be expected and really easy.
Giving up Perspectives is really difficult, though. I just love that class, and I just love the students. But that time-space thing keeps getting in my way. All the time and labor intensive moments of coordinating and planning a Perspectives class happen to hit at the exact same times that new international students are arriving on campus. I can't really be fully involved with the students...going to orientation events, helping them find housing, taking them to Wal-Mart and thrift stores to furnish their new places, hosting their first meals in an American home...when I also have so much Perspectives responsibilities at the same time.
Never once, in all of my Christian life, did it occur to me that saying YES to God would be the easy part, and saying NO to a ministry would be so difficult. MAYBE I need to realize that God is perfectly capable of raising up another servant to say YES to Perspectives, SO I can focus on these students...
Like I've said in the past, there's almost always a song playing in my head. For some reason, this one keeps coming to mind as I try to figure out when to say YES and when to say NO. (hopefully you'll recognize that my mind doesn't always come up with perfectly Godly songs that deal with the issues ideally. Nope, sometimes there's just one line in a song that seems to fit, and my brain goes with it ; )
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